I wish for a place where the earth doesn't shake, if the earth won't be still, then I will... I wish for a place where I could go 'cause everything here moves so slow...

I finally took my decision yesterday about tonight: I was supposed to go see Anastacia live, but I'm not going since I'd have liked some of my closer friends to come, or I could have gone to see my boyfriend's band perform, but I'm not going there either because I usually freak out when I meet too many new people all in once. So... I just took some time for myself and went to take a walk in the woods above the sea.

I needed to be on my own and just chill out... I wouldn't say I succeeded though since there were lots of people jogging and strolling and *yelling*, which is something that really annoys me because you're supposed to be quiet and let the others relax, not inform them about how much of a b***h your wife is... do you think I care? ["I got 99 problems but a b***h ain't one"... !].
Anyway I walked for almost an hour and stopped just for a little while when no one was in sight, so I could enjoy the silence and the sunlight coming through the trees and its reflection on the sea.

My mind never stopped for a second: I wanted to put some order in my thoughts, but I ended up just remembering this last week's events, from my developing feelings for dANIEL, to the knowledge of how much I'm going to miss my job at the library, to my mum and Rol and how I despise him for his behavior, to my fear of the incoming Summer with every little thing it will bring.

Tangled in a web with a pain hard to forget, that was a time that I've now put to rest, the pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned, somebody bring up the lights, I want you to see, don't you feel sorry for me, my life turned around but I'm still living my dreams, yes it's true I've been through it all, I've hit about a million walls, welcome to my truth, I still love, sentimental days in a misty clouded haze...