My shadow's the only one that walks beside me, my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating, sometimes I wish someone out there will find me, till then I walk alone, I walk alone and I walk up...

Another tiring working day at the library has gone by. It feels so weird being there when no one's around, the place looks so empty and desolate [though I was sitting on a certain chair on a certain table *cough cough* but I swear it was absolutely accidental!]. At least it was just Desy, Lucy and I, so I didn't have to suppress my homicidal instincts towards a certain person.  I guess Friday's gonna be the toughest day since *she* is gonna be there [oh joy!] and it will be the last day of the week and it will be also be New Year's Eve… bleah! I still don't know what I'm going to do, all I know is that I'm not going to be alone, and that's comforting enough.
Yesterday I had this long and somewhat interesting conversation with dANIEL on the phone: can I say that we're both kinda fucked up a little? I don't mean it in a bad way, I'm just being realistic. I don't know why it saddened me, but it did, and I'm still trying to figure out what could be the true reason. Probably it's just that differences scare me, I'm afraid of what could happen if I open myself completely and let the other see what I'm really about 'cause I hate compromises, they always made me feel not too proud about myself and almost… dirty, in a way.
I just talked to Zeby on the phone: she called to know if I feel better [so sweet! ], to thank me for the little Christmas present, but most importantly to talk about the dinner. Next Saturday is the most probable option, and I'm just so happy that Morgan will come 'cause he really is a lovable guy [despite that little naughty dream I've had like a week ago about him finding my blog and telling me he had one too called <fuck panda>  ] and he makes me laugh, which is always a good thing.
I didn't resist in the end and I watched the second part of "The Return Of The King" on Christmas Day with Rol… . Oh my God!!! Are there actually words to describe it???

Well, the whole Saruman thing disappointed me a bit, sorry, it felt a little patched up, I don't know. But I absolutely LOVED the scene with Aragorn at the Black Gate with the Mouth of Sauron: yeah, I would have done the same thing… mmm, no, probably I would have made him suffer more for the way he spoke about Frodo, what the hell!
What else? Well, Legolas looks smarter, thankfully, as it should have been from the very beginning, but somehow to me his lines are so… lame, like the *diversion* one [I shiver just at the memory of it!]. Frodo looks amazing, as usual, even if he's desperate and just miserable. Anyway, I was hoping for an extended shot in the tower, yes, but I didn't care about Orcs and Uruk-Hai arguing! *sighs deeply*
Well, that's all for today, bye bye.

Hello. i just adore Legolas! i know he really exists. i will do anything to see him. no one knows how i really feel about him. i've written a story on my relationship with him in my dreams. i wonder if i'm not the only one who feels this way.

Hi lily!
Wow, you must really love him! My favorite has always been Frodo... he's too cute!
I'd love to read the story you've written about Legolas... I've found a few about Frodo some time ago on the Internet and they were really good, with alternative endings and stuff like that.
You can write here again if you want.