Oh, well… what can I say? I was supposed to have a test yesterday after an ultrasound I had two months ago… *supposed to* because nothing happened.  I went there, they made me walk around in those infinite hospital's corridors, and then they said that my doctor gave me the wrong date because the test was scheduled for the 23rd of MAY… but that can't be possible because my doctor *took* the appointment that day and she clearly remembered they said JUNE, because she thought that would be long enough for me to recover after the mono.
So… I wasted an entire afternoon, I had nightmares for the whole week about this huge needle penetrating my skin, I didn't go to work… and they tell me there's nothing they can do because there's not enough staff to have another appointment and if I *really* need to do it I can always go to some other city. Sure, thank you very much!
The only positive thing about yesterday in the end is that I had more time to spend with dANIEL who came to visit with me in the afternoon. Again we went to the pier and enjoyed the sun, the sea, the view… and an ice-cream!
Today is being a little weird: I can't say I feel sad because it's not exactly that, but I feel distant and different from anyone else. I know I should try to stick with that intention of not giving a damn about what people could think of me or how could they judge me, but -believe me- this becomes incredibly difficult when you don't feel comfortable with your body because you see it too skinny. People are used to see overweight girls, but when they see someone like me it seems they really can't help but doing stupid comments like "do you eat enough?", "are you on a diet?", "don't you think you're skinny enough?", "why don't you eat more and put on some weight?", and the worst one… "are you anorexic?". Uhm, what would you think if I told you to go f**k yourself?  Never considered the idea of thinking before opening your damn mouth?
This is really frustrating because I can't even force myself to go to the beach because it's embarrassing for me to just stay there in a bathing suit and see all these perfect girls walking around, and it's even more frustrating because I know it wouldn't take that much for me to be "normal", just a few pounds, but my mind doesn't want to know about that, it seems.

Well my goodness..I just don't know what to think about that medical staff! I just can't understand how they could confuse this for you. You were so nervous and upset about this and then to get there and them say that the test was actually scheduled a month ago??????? Could someone have called to make sure that you knew to be there that day (alerting you to the mix-up)..could they not have done something?! Ugh! I'm so sorry that this happened to you, Ally..truly.

Well you did have some good company and ..although that wasn't the kind of day you braced yourself for. Wow! I'm so blown away by this.

I wish there was something in my old bag of tricks that could just take away all the bad. Unfortunately..there isn't anything in there like that. Although there are a few things that could make ya giggle, maybe even make you smile a bit. If nothing else..know that I'm really pulling for you and wishing you all the best in the world. Sunshine and rainbows only go so far..a friendly ear to chat with sometimes helps? Well..I got a good ear available when you just need to scream or rant or anything for that matter. Hit me up when you get a chance..

The mix up with the test doesn't surprise me at all. I have seen this sort of thing happen over and over again. As frustrating as it is there isn't much you can do but roll your eyes.
As far as stupid comments like that there isn't much you can do but ask them what their problem is. My sister was underweight all her life and had the same problem. She just ended up being very sarcastic.
Wishing you the best!
Aidan